I hate to sound condescending but there's something about the suburbs that makes me cringe. Don't get me wrong I love the burbs and proudly grew up in them. I love having the small town pride but being accessible to a city. I feel like even though there's less diversity than in a city, the diversity that is here is very close to you (and not in an annoying crowded way), well understood and appreciated. However, I still think I grew up with a bit more diversity than my own kids have (or maybe I am just romanticizing my own hometown).
This weekend we had a race in town and I participated. I was happy with my time, 4 miles in 34 minutes! I have not been running since my toe has been hurting, just using the cardio machines so I had no idea how I'd do. As I rolled up to the finish line and saw the clock, I have to admit I was happy. Then I saw another mom that I frequently see at the YMCA and was disappointed that she had beaten me, albeit by only a few seconds. First impressions are a special thing and I have never even spoken to this mom but I sort of dislike her (this might change upon actually speaking to this woman). Months ago she was on a cardio machine talking to her friend, loud enough that I could hear her from further away. She was telling her friend about going somewhere, a college or dancing, somewhere where younger people without children are, and went on and on about how young she looked (I should really be exercising with headphones). I suppose its fine to say these things to a friend but so loudly where others can hear you?! Please!
She is about my age (I only know this because the race results list our age) and therefore does not fit the mold in this town of having kids about 5-10 years later than we actually did. It does give you a little bit of a complex, being an outlier. The moms are older and look great but a lot have that "mom" look. Makes me wonder do I have that "mom" look? Perhaps everyone worries about looking older in their 30s, I just hope to look my age and no older. My husband even commented that the "dad" uniform is kaki pants with a tucked in golf shirt. If me and my husband can sense the very obvious norm as adults living here, what is the high school in town like? YIKES! There's something about the suburbs that makes everyone do the same things and I don't know that I want my family to be in a place where being even slightly different is always so obvious (or maybe I'm over thinking all of it -- its not like anyone is shunned here for being different).
The bathroom remodel is complete and looks great but it only took three days for us to start talking about moving again. I hate to traumatize my kids by moving them around but I've only lived in this metropolitan area, what if some other place is better for them and us as a family? How difficult would it be to sell our house? Would we lose a lot of money? There's only one way to find out and it feels like such a gamble. These are by no means the only reasons we're considering moving but they are factors.
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